I finally realized that I needed to lose some weight. None of my clothes looked nice on me and everything was so fucking tight that I was getting exhausted holding my breath all day long. I looked in the mirror and realized that if I couldn't stand my body, what female in her right mind would want any part of it as well. In fact, I might never get laid again.
But that was 11 days ago and for these first hard, difficult, exhausting, frustrating days I have managed to survive. I completely feel sorry for anyone that is or has been around me. I have been one self centered bitch doing nothing but talking about weight loss.. So I have lost 12 pounds in just as many days and feel somewhat good about it. I still feel bad for those who have been around me.
The problem is that I want to lose another 20 plus pounds and know that it will be impossible to continue this loss, but I intend to try like crazy. I am, however, making everyone around me crazy by not eating anything not on my diet.
It's really a simple diet. All you have to do is forget about almost every fucking thing you loved to eat and not eat it. See.....it's really simple.....right........Anyway, I am on the South Beach Diet which is really nothing more than eliminating most or all carbs....Simple right.......No.
I am sure there are many of you that want to lose weight, but can't get by the first couple of days. Let me tell you that it is simple.. OK, let me tell you the truth....It sucks........But....if you can make it through the first few days, you are home free.
The first few days were a complete and total disaster. I was ready to kill myself and everyone around me.............But...........it can be done. So what if I have nice signs all over my kitchen telling me not to eat and with a daily chart of my weight loss....I am only writing this tonight and telling all of my wonderful readers of crapusa.com this because I want to make you as fucking miserable as I have been since the inception...I have not had one drop of alcohol. (I have just lied to all of you), I have not had my morning bagel. I have not had any bread, pasta, cake, candy, junk food.......etc.
But I do know there is a light at the end of the tunnel...Wait a minute ???? Isn't that what you see before you die ???????? My motivation is below.....please wish me luck.
I guess I better go to sleep and dream. After all I have to get up early to go to the god damn gym to help with this.
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